You've never felt pain until you've felt love.

I miss you...

I miss every single part of you...

I even miss the smell of your hair...

You used to bring me along to watch those silly movies...

You used to hold me in your protective arms...

You used to treat me for delightful dinners...

You used to make me laugh for hours and days...

You used to protect me from dangers and harm...

You used to fight for me and rescue me...

You used to cuddle me and make me giggle...

You used to comfort me whenever I am having breakdown...

You used to drive me around and stroll across the park...

You used to wipe my tears and my sweat...

You used to lean on me and hear me out...

You used to text me every single day...

You used to poke me like a child...

You used to say those three words; "I love you..."

Now, losing you....make me feel even worse.

I miss you.

I love you.

But I know I can't have you.

It's true after all when they say; "You've never felt pain until you've felt love."

Thank you for the memories together.

Genap sebulan...

Tomorrow: 22 January 2010.

It will be a month already since mummy left us.
I miss her.
I miss my family.
I hope she is doing somewhat OK over 'there'.
For what is worth, she won't be suffering anymore, ameen.

To mummy,
The time we spent together,
was a great time I explored my life.
The days we pulled through together,
were the best days for me to really know you.

It is unfair
If I ask God to bring you back,
If I ask God to switch place with you,
If I ask you to come back
and take me with you.

They threw the shirt into the store room.
They do not wish to see the shimmering blood stain.
But, until there's moon,
the blood won't shine again.

To abah,
Through my eyes,
You have been so strong.
Through their eyes,
You are nowhere near wrong.

I am proud to see someone who still stands tall.
I am proud to pull you from the miserable fall.
I am proud to call you "My all"

The time will pass by,
It will stop and say "Hye!",
Just reminisce those pretty eyes,
and say "Bye, bye pretty eyes!"

To Aiman and Alyaa,
You are small,
but not little.
I'll help you crawl,
so you won't be belittled.

Together we face the world.
Though reality seems harsh.
There's no reason to depressingly swirl,
Standing tall and have pride is a must!

Just because this looks unfair,
It does not mean to retreat from joy!
Just because they will stare,
It does not mean we should play their toys!

To everyone,
Hang in there.
Because God is fair.
One day, the sunlight will fall down to the stairs!
One day, we will shout to the air...
That WE HAVE EACH OTHER TO CARE!!!

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Can 2010 audition beat this? Wait & C...

Whataya Want From Me

Adam Lambert - Whataya Want From Me

Dia; si pemalu....

Shy shy cat, shy shy cat...

Shoo shoo, go away...main jauh-jauh...

Today, I met someone who was utterly shy. To an extreme level, this person would not even look at me...All he did was 'staring' at the floor...while belek-belek some magazines, CDs etc...

Could it be me who's not good looking enough? Or could it really be that he's an extreme introvert?

Somehow, I did get a way to break the ice...and broke the silent mold. We struggled to make 'nice and decent' conversation though.

He's cool somehow. He taught me a bit about Chinese culture, the meaning of every crystal we found and many things regarding the Chinese New Year. Al-maklumlah, his festivity dah dekat....

He offered me many things, but I had to refuse. Mostly, it's because they were not my cup of tea. I had zero interest in those stuffs especially the stones; Wealth, Money, Health, Love, etc. - which cost almost RM450 each. Motif???!

He even brought me to a Chinese restaurant but I had to pass. "Oh, u can't eat here right?! It's non halal...Sorry". Tau pun. Motif ajak aku pegi situ??? Agak-agak la weyh...

He's a good friend, I think. Perhaps, it's too soon to read a character based on first meeting.

It's a nice day to hang out with a shy person like him. After some series of persuading me to hang out together, I finally agreed to go out with him, albeit reluctantly. So, thank you for today. ;p