How are you? How have you been? I bet you must be really happy now. Good for you.
Is this working for you? If it does, good for you. I wish I could say the same in my case but I couldn't.
Sometimes I wish you'd call.
Sometimes a call from you is what it takes to hold me.
Sometimes I wish you'd send me photos and stuff.
As those will only be your guarantee for a special me.
Most of the time, I long for your warm touch.
Kisses work wonders eh.
Past is past. It's time to move on.
Lingering on the past...
sometimes it's soothing
at times, it's hard to dispel the gloom.
I miss you US. I do.
Saturday, July 22, 2017
Wednesday, July 19, 2017
This is for you...
Hey you.. this is for you..
It's been a while
since I finally accepted
the end.
But I'm not gonna deny
how my heart still aches
every time I think
of how this; us ended.
And if I could go back,
I wish I could tell you this:
I stayed for too long,
I endured for too long,
not because I was weak
not because I was afraid
but because I loved you
because I believed you'd change
because I thought I was still special.
I left, not because
you skipped me
not because you ignored me
Because I no longer become your number one
Because of your uncommitted and uninterest in us
Staying with you would mean more tears to me nowadays.
I needed to stop because
I no longer loved myself by loving you.
It's been a while
since I finally accepted
the end.
But I'm not gonna deny
how my heart still aches
every time I think
of how this; us ended.
And if I could go back,
I wish I could tell you this:
I stayed for too long,
I endured for too long,
not because I was weak
not because I was afraid
but because I loved you
because I believed you'd change
because I thought I was still special.
I left, not because
you skipped me
not because you ignored me
Because I no longer become your number one
Because of your uncommitted and uninterest in us
Staying with you would mean more tears to me nowadays.
I needed to stop because
I no longer loved myself by loving you.
Wednesday, July 12, 2017
If this is my last night with you...
... exactly how I feel at the moment ...
This is for you...
"All I Ask"
I will leave my heart at the door
I won't say a word
They've all been said before, you know
So why don't we just play pretend
Like we're not scared of what is coming next
Or scared of having nothing left
Look, don't get me wrong
I know there is no tomorrow
All I ask is
If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
'Cause what if I never love again?
I don't need your honesty
It's already in your eyes
And I'm sure my eyes, they speak for me
No one knows me like you do
And since you're the only one that matters
Tell me who do I run to?
Look, don't get me wrong
I know there is no tomorrow
All I ask is
If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
'Cause what if I never love again?
Let this be our lesson in love
Let this be the way we remember us
I don't wanna be cruel or vicious
And I ain't asking for forgiveness
All I ask is
If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
'Cause what if I never love again?
I won't say a word
They've all been said before, you know
So why don't we just play pretend
Like we're not scared of what is coming next
Or scared of having nothing left
Look, don't get me wrong
I know there is no tomorrow
All I ask is
If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
'Cause what if I never love again?
I don't need your honesty
It's already in your eyes
And I'm sure my eyes, they speak for me
No one knows me like you do
And since you're the only one that matters
Tell me who do I run to?
Look, don't get me wrong
I know there is no tomorrow
All I ask is
If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
'Cause what if I never love again?
Let this be our lesson in love
Let this be the way we remember us
I don't wanna be cruel or vicious
And I ain't asking for forgiveness
All I ask is
If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
'Cause what if I never love again?
Monday, June 19, 2017
Sunday, May 14, 2017
The beginning of an end
Hiya there,
Wah..catchy phrase there. 'The beginning of an end'. It does not make sense if I say this now. It is just for us to prepare for what is about to come later. I wish to say 'the end of a beginning' but even that does not make any sense since we started this long ago.
Ok, I rambled.
Perhaps this will mark a period before we really end this (whatever you call it) relationship. Though this post might be exclusively written for a specific audience (you), if others (presumably you, you and you) happen to read it too, feel free to use your wild imagination.
Trust is expensive. I trusted you once. Wait. No. More than once. Today, I find it hard to trust you. Tell me, is it wrong for me to doubt you? I know you took the pictures not for my attention, nor for hers. So? I have a feeling that another agenda came in between those pics.
I know you have been repeating whatever wrong you did to me. I know you have been reaching out to another 'weird (if not bent) creatures' out there. Behind my back. Yes, you must be lonely that's why you started... again. Relapse? Perhaps. Lust? Definitely. Saja-saja? No way.
Carry on. If one day, I found out.. kantoi.. whatever you name it, it will be the end of everything. Honestly, between you and my instict, I trust mine more. So blame me if I'm being too outpushy.
Ta~
Wah..catchy phrase there. 'The beginning of an end'. It does not make sense if I say this now. It is just for us to prepare for what is about to come later. I wish to say 'the end of a beginning' but even that does not make any sense since we started this long ago.
Ok, I rambled.
Perhaps this will mark a period before we really end this (whatever you call it) relationship. Though this post might be exclusively written for a specific audience (you), if others (presumably you, you and you) happen to read it too, feel free to use your wild imagination.
Trust is expensive. I trusted you once. Wait. No. More than once. Today, I find it hard to trust you. Tell me, is it wrong for me to doubt you? I know you took the pictures not for my attention, nor for hers. So? I have a feeling that another agenda came in between those pics.
I know you have been repeating whatever wrong you did to me. I know you have been reaching out to another 'weird (if not bent) creatures' out there. Behind my back. Yes, you must be lonely that's why you started... again. Relapse? Perhaps. Lust? Definitely. Saja-saja? No way.
Carry on. If one day, I found out.. kantoi.. whatever you name it, it will be the end of everything. Honestly, between you and my instict, I trust mine more. So blame me if I'm being too outpushy.
Ta~
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