Monday, March 22, 2010

Reset the button.

My button has been pushed. I once thought I am a limitless person and I opt to challenge my limit. I was wrong. There's a limit in everything. Why do I get the feeling that I am a useless piece of crap??? Maybe I am. I am sorry for the way I behave. It is immature. Yet I claim myself as a not-so-childish boy. How ridiculous. The greatest mistake is when I put expectation. I should have not put any if I want to be happy. Am I happy? I don't think so. Are you happy? I don't think so. I was happy...but not anymore. How to mend a broken heart? They say; "time heals everything..." Yeah right. I guess, I really need to stop staring at the glimpse and glance...JUST GO. My life is too short for such misery I think. Why can't I be happy like others? Why can't I feel content of having you by my side? Why? There is something wrong. Is there any barrier set up in between? I don't know.

I just want you to be happy, even with the absence of my heart in your life. I know you can pull through. Now, it is the time for you to get up and chase your freedom. There will be no one stopping you from what you crave. Go on. Be happy. I can't be happy seeing you in such desolation. I love you, I do. But I can't do this anymore. I need a break. From everything.

Thank you for every single memory and thought you gave me. You are the best. Indeed you are. I am very pleased to have you, stopping by...even just for a while. I will remember you for...quite a long time, I guess. The feelings won't go away in an instance. It will remain there. Time will make it fade. Again, be happy and enjoy your life ok.

Love, sincerely yours,

N 2 N

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