Penat

Mentally
Physically

Hmm.. how long?

When I need you, you are always with someone else...
I don't feel belonged anymore.

I don't have your time anymore...
I don't feel needed anymore.

I don't have you anymore.
What I have is just the memories of you.

Am I selfish?
If it is too much to ask for your time,
Then, I'm sorry.

I still remember..
The smile on your face
The smell of you
The soothing voice of yours
The warmth of your body
The warmth of your hands
The soft lips of yours

Do you remember me?
My face?
My favourite scent of smell?
My favourite movie?
My favourite song?
My hands?

Do you remember us?
The bike?
The long drive?
The fever?
The songs? Our songs?
The shiseido mask?
The land-rover?
The foods?
The sleepovers?
The way I boiled some water for you not to catch fever?
The shower?
The doing nothing part?
The shave?
The argument (ko la pulak..asyik aku je..)?
The endless phone calls?
The way we held hands throughout long journeys?
The vacations?
The way I put lotion on you so you would stop bleeding?
The movies?
The unplanned trips?
The arm pillow?
The awkward first kiss?
The kiss on the forehead?
The 200, 500 kisses?
The birthday plan?
The watches?
The rings?
The trip on the bus?

Sometimes, I feel like I should let go of this feeling...
If I let go,
Everyone will be happy.

You will be happy.
You should be happy.
You deserve to be happy.

If only you could see how much have I sacrificed for you..
The lonely nights without you
The lonely days without you
I don't go out and flirt around
The temptation...
I just control...
I only ask few things from you and you said it's hard.
If, and only if you could see how hard my life here is.
Then you would understand what difficult really means...

I should leave, shouldn't I?
My time with you is up...

You will miss me when I'm gone.