BFG syndrome

This slothfulness. The restless feeling of not wanting to do anything.
So many things to do yet nothing has taken its toll to kick off.
These days, I just sit in front of the screen. I stare and nothing is moving.
Still frames by frames.
Nothing but a mere glimpse.

The flashes of the flicker do not seem to bother.
I dream of completing everything in my mind but physically, nothing is happening.
What is happening to me?

30% worth of essay is not of significance anymore!
I need to start writing but I choose to distract myself instead.
I made a cup of coffee... black and strong.
But it's just sitting there on the table, 'unscathed'.

I think I have one.
A BFG syndrome.
Back for good.
:(

Fix you

Fix You ~ Coldplay

When you try your best, but you don't succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below

When you're too in love to let it go

But if you never try you'll never know

Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down your face and I

Tears stream down your face

I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

Tears stream down your face and I

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Video: http://youtube.com/watch?v=k4V3Mo61fJM

Lyrics: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/coldplay/fixyou.html 

Yeke?

Betul ke when someone says he or she loves you so much... or misses you so much, they mean 'em? Boleh percaya ke? For me, those words are just words, nothing but a vague expression or at least (1/10) of how they feel/felt. Whatever.

I love you.
I miss you.

That's that.

Untung badan

Hi there,

"Mari, mari tuan dengar ini cerita
Perempuan tidak semua cemburu buta
Kalau suaminya asyik bergaya
Dia so jealous tidak percaya.."

You know ape jadi satu hari tu? I waited and waited for nothing. I used to be getting endless texts or calls from someone so dearly. But... the sad part is, it's like waiting for uncertainty. Kalau ade, ade lah. Dah xde, nk buat cmne, offline je lah.

So, I tried getting use to not having any text messages or even calls for that matter. Tak boleh lah. I keep on wanting more. One thing I can tell you; "Expectation kills!" Never mind then.

Why can't you make it as usual as it was...as it used to be? Why must you go and find me only when you need me? Only when you 'miss' me? If we're just friends, I don't see any wrong in sustaining what we do. What's wrong with that? Why do you have to keep me in the dark. It's like you're hiding me from them. Is that nice? Why?

I admit, I'm a selfish lad. My biggest selfishness is wanting you to love me back, just the way I do for you. But I can't. Unlike me, you are loved by many. Untung la badan. Berpada-padalah. Untung kan when you have so many to love you. So pardon me for wanting more because unlike you, I DON'T HAVE MANY TO LOVE!

Oh don't worry, I still love you. I always do. Sometimes, it kills to wait. Dreadful!

Miss you.

di, don't let me go...

Don't Let Me Go - Click Five

I can see your shadow laying in the moonlight

I can feel your heartbeat playing on my right side

Every night I long for this, makin' up what I miss

I can hear you breathing letting out a sad sigh

You try so hard to hide your scars

Always on your guard

(Chorus)

Don't, don't let me go

Don't make me hold on when you're not

Don't, don't turn away

What can I say so you won't

No don't, don't let me go...

I can see the skyline fading in the distance

Tears are comin' down

I'm trying just to make sense

I don't listen to the radio just the engine and the road

I wonder if my words are makin' any difference

I dream and then it seems to end

But always comes again

(Chorus)

Don't, don't let me go

Don't make me hold on when you're not

Don't, don't turn away

What can I say so you won't

No don't, don't let me go...

I'm comin' down

to where you're standing

I need you now or you'll be watchin'

me hit the ground

with crash landing...

(Chorus)

Don't, don't let me go

Don't make me hold on when you're not

Don't, don't turn away

What can I say so you won't

No don't, don't let me go...

Don't let me go...

Don't let me go...

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_08BBIGkwA8

Lyrics: http://www.metrolyrics.com/dont-let-me-go-lyrics-click-five.html

This wall between us

Day by day, we are getting further apart. It seems like it is true after all. Maybe it is God's way of telling us to stop. Maybe we are not meant to be together. 

Just so you know, pretending to be okay and skipping issues will not get us anywhere. Oh well, what do you care? You are doing okay with your life.

I know that it will hurt at the beginning but I know you are strong. These few days.. I have got myself into thinking.. Hey, you can do this. You are doing fine. You seem to be enjoying this. You seem to be okay. Good to know that.

I guess, you made it through. See? What did I tell you? You don't need me after all. You are doing just fine. Without me, that is. So, let's just carry on with our lives. You don't need me.

What do we have? Just memories. There's nothing for us in the future. Can't you see that I am doing a favor for the both of us. I am saving both of us from getting hurt in the future. 

Thank you for the memories. Thank you for everything. I have loved you too much and it is time to stop. 

I love you, goodbye.

Lang Leav

Sometimes, the best way to stay close to someone you love is by being just a friend... :(

Just Friends

I know that I don't own you,

and perhaps I never will,

so my anger when you're with her,

I have no right to feel.

I know that you don't owe me,

and I shouldn't ask for more;

I shouldn't feel so let down,

all the times when you don't call.

What I feel - I shouldn't show you,

so when you're around I won't;

I know I've no right to feel it

but it doesn't mean I don't.

Shoo shoo fever...

Urgh. Fever, fever please go away. Shoo shoo.

Truth be told that I have already recovered last week. Then came my housemates' turns one by one. As I was about to be in pink of health, the virus chose to just hang in there for a while more. Uhuk uhuk.

It is hard to stay awake and focus on assignments when you are not in your best shape. I keep forcing my eyes (if not my brain) to focus but I get dizzy and drowsy. The worst part of all is when I think the fever has settled in my 'active' mind and I am inactive now. I have deactivated my brain. Oh come on, not even half of the page yet!!!

I have two essays to submit with one presentation on hold. I need to start working on my magic fingers now. Come on! Work it baby... Oh wait, I am still here... wasting my time doing you bloggy. 

Ok, I am officially dead.
Ta.

You lost me

It has been a while since I last listened to this song. Anyway, this is a song by Christina Aguilera. Many do not fancy it but I am just fine with it. Here it goes.

"You Lost Me"

I am done, smoking gun

We've lost it all, the love is gone

She has won, now it's no fun

We've lost it all, the love is gone

And we had magic

And this is tragic

You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

I feel like our world's been infected

And somehow you left me neglected

We've found our lives been changed

Babe, you lost me

And we tried, oh how we cried

We lost ourselves, the love has died

And though we tried you can't deny

We're left as shells, we lost the fight

And we had magic

And this is tragic

You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

I feel like our world's been infected

And somehow you left me neglected

We've found our lives been changed

Babe, you lost me

Now I know you're sorry and we were sweet

But you chose lust when you deceived me

And you'll regret it, but it's too late

How can I ever trust you again?

I feel like our world's been infected

And somehow you left me neglected

We've found our lives been changed

Babe, you lost me

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WOKI_tIBWVI

Lyrics: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/christinaaguilera/youlostme.html