Untung badan

Hi there,

"Mari, mari tuan dengar ini cerita
Perempuan tidak semua cemburu buta
Kalau suaminya asyik bergaya
Dia so jealous tidak percaya.."

You know ape jadi satu hari tu? I waited and waited for nothing. I used to be getting endless texts or calls from someone so dearly. But... the sad part is, it's like waiting for uncertainty. Kalau ade, ade lah. Dah xde, nk buat cmne, offline je lah.

So, I tried getting use to not having any text messages or even calls for that matter. Tak boleh lah. I keep on wanting more. One thing I can tell you; "Expectation kills!" Never mind then.

Why can't you make it as usual as it was...as it used to be? Why must you go and find me only when you need me? Only when you 'miss' me? If we're just friends, I don't see any wrong in sustaining what we do. What's wrong with that? Why do you have to keep me in the dark. It's like you're hiding me from them. Is that nice? Why?

I admit, I'm a selfish lad. My biggest selfishness is wanting you to love me back, just the way I do for you. But I can't. Unlike me, you are loved by many. Untung la badan. Berpada-padalah. Untung kan when you have so many to love you. So pardon me for wanting more because unlike you, I DON'T HAVE MANY TO LOVE!

Oh don't worry, I still love you. I always do. Sometimes, it kills to wait. Dreadful!

Miss you.