Sunday, August 30, 2015

No working title

Note: This is random, nothing to do with the real characters in life.

(Sigh). It is bad to start your day with a sigh but what better way to start your day when you keep on waking up to the same unhappy thought. A short, reflective sigh. (Sigh).

What is happening to us. We seriously need to talk. Stop avoiding it and hiving off with other issues. I cannot really do this till everything is cleared. We need to clear the air! Enough with your subtle pretentious fixation! (Sigh).

Dear you, if you want this to work out, you need to contribute and think of something too. I am not doing the thinking anymore. The end resort is always the same, which is me letting go. I do not want to let go of what we have here but if that is the only way for both of us to be happy, what do you think?? Both of us deserve to be happy.

The more dragging you pull me into, the more you and I suffer. I am suffocated. 
Truthfully, I have been craving for your attention but lately, there is nothing but emptiness in your talk. Even the messages are empty if you know what I mean. I do not have the luxury of having what I used to get from you anymore. No more long calls, long chat, what more sharing jokes. It is all so awkward and formal now. The funny thing is, my texts sent to you were marked "Delivered" for hours. Hours. It would be less frustrating if they were all "Read" earlier. The fact that you chose not to read them says more than enough. So please, if you want to let go, let go. If you don't want to let go, don't let go. But please don't let me hanging like an idiot here. What do you want from me??? Have a say please...

I only want the best for both of us. If not being with you is the only way for everyone (I mean EVERYONE) to be happy, then so be it. It is hard, I know. Gosh, I don't even know if I could do it. But again, what other options do we have?

May the future have something bright for us in store. be cont'd.

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

I have found you

Dear God, please let me keep my 'Booby' forever, please...
Throughout life, you will meet one person who is unlike any other. You could talk to this person for hours and never get bored. You could tell them things, even the most awkward or private things and they won't judge you. You could drive endlessly holding hands, sweating and still want to hold hands. You could just lie down, do nothing and still feel special. This person is your soulmate, your heart, your best friend, your special buddy.

I have found mine. 
It's you; 'Booby'.

Monday, August 17, 2015


Three things on my mind:

1. What are you doing?

2. How have you been?

3. Do you miss me?

p/s - There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 u... I love U. There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words 4 u and that's what I'll do.. I love U.

Tears are expensive

Tears are not cheap.
Tears are priceless.
Unlike smiles that you can simply put up for anyone,
tears are only for the ones you really love and care about.

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Woohoo.. skip-a-lot!

Aha... I think I have forgotten the guilt-free feeling of skipping classes. I should be in class, so to speak.... but, I just don't feel like going to. Lousy headache! That's my lame excuse. I should be off the hook. Oh well. Bite me.

Lately, I have problems with my sleep. I wanted to sleep but I could not. I tried but I just could not sleep. Instead, I stayed awake and watched some movies till my brain oozed out. Tired. Sleep deprivation? Sigh. Too much to think I guess. Why can't I just let it go??? 

I hope this will stop. I need to stay focus. :(

p/s - Sometimes you just need a little reminder to remind you how special your relationship is or was for that matter. The problem is, I don't have my REMINDER.

Tuesday, August 11, 2015

You are my song!

This isn't just a song
Whenever I hear the song,
I can't help but remember
the moments from then.

As I walk, passing a place
I can't help but stop
What am I supposed to do?

I can't help that this song
isn't just another song anymore.

I wanna grow old with you!
 So be still my heart because every day I love you as long as the stars are above you.

Sunday, August 2, 2015

Sunny Sunday

What a happy Sunday. Nothing much. Just a lil bit of happiness and sunshine. Have you ever felt happy without knowing the reason of such feeling? Indescribable feeling. Oh boy I have never felt like this for quite sometimes. Not to mention towards the end of the weekend. Tomorrow is Monday but I could not care less. LOL. I love this day!

Southbank :)

Southbank :)
p/s - Happy Newly Wed to my dear cousin; Amir and his wife Cyla :) Love each other, treasure each other and take a good care of each other ye! xoxo