Tuesday, December 8, 2015

Di

Dear buDDy,

I know you are in a very difficult position right now. Your son is like my own son. I’d like the idea of being a co-father to him. I wish to express this; I treasure your precious son, your wife and most importantly; YOU. I love everything about you. Ok that’s it. You won’t get to hear me saying those a lot but I seriously mean it. I just hope that you will involve me in your life and not just looking for me when you need me. Thank you for wanting to be a part of my life, a very important part of my life. I love you.

I am deeply sorry you have to be in this position but trust me buddy, God has plans for you. I always pray for Zayyan and I somehow believe he is strong like his Baba. I can’t wait to spend time with him in the near future and forever. So please keep me updated and keep your promises Baba! To be honest Di, I am beginning to fall in love with him too. Such adorable thing, so sweet and pure! So, be strong for him Baba and insyaAllah he’ll be back in pink and stomp this world soon!

Oh boy buDDy,

Never have I imagined to have met someone who can turn my world around. We practically share everything Di. We tell each other things we have never shared with another soul and we accept everything about us. We share hopes for the future too #iwannagrowoldwithyou. You are someone I cannot wait to share things with. You are someone who is not embarrassed to cry in front of me or together with me. You cry along knowing I am hurting and laugh as I make a fool of myself. 

With you, I can freely be myself and not worry what you will think of me because I know deep down, you love me for who I am. The thing about us is, even the things that seem insignificant to most people such as random selfies, pointless drive here and there, pointless lying in bed doing nothing and songs dedication become invaluable treasures kept safe in our hearts to cherish forever. Honestly, the endless phone calls and texts help me a lot to get through the day and they never fail to bring smile to my face. The colors of the world seem brighter and more brilliant! 

With you Di, there is no need for continuous conversation but I am happy just by having you close. Things that never interested me before become fascinating because I know they are important for you. I think of you on every occasion and in everything I do. Every morning, waking up with the thought of you makes my day brighter. Every night, I keep hoping to find you in my dreams. 

In you, I find my strength knowing I have a special true buddy who will remain loyal to the end. I wish to be a significant part in your life till the end too. Special buddy, that’s what you are!

Di,

If I could give you one thing in life, I’d give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes! Only then would you realize how very special you are to me Di!

I love you.

#bestill
#howlongwilliloveyou
#iwannagrowoldwithyou
#everydayiloveyou
#dontletmego

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Online again

Woohoo...

Phewww... finally, it is on again. Sorry bloggy.

Here's a jac for you...


Wednesday, September 30, 2015

di, don't let me go...





I can see your shadow laying in the moonlight

I can feel your heartbeat playing on my right side

Every night I long for this, makin' up what I miss

I can hear you breathing letting out a sad sigh



You try so hard to hide your scars

Always on your guard



(Chorus)

Don't, don't let me go

Don't make me hold on when you're not

Don't, don't turn away

What can I say so you won't

No don't, don't let me go...



I can see the skyline fading in the distance

Tears are comin' down

I'm trying just to make sense

I don't listen to the radio just the engine and the road

I wonder if my words are makin' any difference



I dream and then it seems to end

But always comes again



(Chorus)
Don't, don't let me go

Don't make me hold on when you're not

Don't, don't turn away

What can I say so you won't

No don't, don't let me go...


I'm comin' down

to where you're standing

I need you now or you'll be watchin'

me hit the ground

with crash landing...



(Chorus)
Don't, don't let me go

Don't make me hold on when you're not

Don't, don't turn away

What can I say so you won't

No don't, don't let me go...


Don't let me go...

Don't let me go...

Saturday, September 26, 2015

This wall between us

Day by day, we are getting further apart. It seems like it is true after all. Maybe it is God's way of telling us to stop. Maybe we are not meant to be together. 

Just so you know, pretending to be okay and skipping issues will not get us anywhere. Oh well, what do you care? You are doing okay with your life.

I know that it will hurt at the beginning but I know you are strong. These few days.. I have got myself into thinking.. Hey, you can do this. You are doing fine. You seem to be enjoying this. You seem to be okay. Good to know that.

I guess, you made it through. See? What did I tell you? You don't need me after all. You are doing just fine. Without me, that is. So, let's just carry on with our lives. You don't need me.

What do we have? Just memories. There's nothing for us in the future. Can't you see that I am doing a favor for the both of us. I am saving both of us from getting hurt in the future. 

Thank you for the memories. Thank you for everything. I have loved you too much and it is time to stop. 

I love you, goodbye.

Saturday, September 19, 2015

Lang Leav

Sometimes, the best way to stay close to someone you love is by being just a friend... :(

Just Friends

I know that I don't own you,
and perhaps I never will,
so my anger when you're with her,
I have no right to feel.

I know that you don't owe me,
and I shouldn't ask for more;
I shouldn't feel so let down,
all the times when you don't call.

What I feel - I shouldn't show you,
so when you're around I won't;
I know I've no right to feel it
but it doesn't mean I don't.

Monday, September 7, 2015

Shoo shoo fever...

Urgh. Fever, fever please go away. Shoo shoo.


Truth be told that I have already recovered last week. Then came my housemates' turns one by one. As I was about to be in pink of health, the virus chose to just hang in there for a while more. Uhuk uhuk.

It is hard to stay awake and focus on assignments when you are not in your best shape. I keep forcing my eyes (if not my brain) to focus but I get dizzy and drowsy. The worst part of all is when I think the fever has settled in my 'active' mind and I am inactive now. I have deactivated my brain. Oh come on, not even half of the page yet!!!

I have two essays to submit with one presentation on hold. I need to start working on my magic fingers now. Come on! Work it baby... Oh wait, I am still here... wasting my time doing you bloggy. 


Ok, I am officially dead.
Ta.

Saturday, September 5, 2015

You lost me

It has been a while since I last listened to this song. Anyway, this is a song by Christina Aguilera. Many do not fancy it but I am just fine with it. Here it goes.




"You Lost Me"

I am done, smoking gun
We've lost it all, the love is gone
She has won, now it's no fun
We've lost it all, the love is gone

And we had magic
And this is tragic
You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

I feel like our world's been infected
And somehow you left me neglected
We've found our lives been changed
Babe, you lost me

And we tried, oh how we cried
We lost ourselves, the love has died
And though we tried you can't deny
We're left as shells, we lost the fight

And we had magic
And this is tragic
You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

I feel like our world's been infected
And somehow you left me neglected
We've found our lives been changed
Babe, you lost me

Now I know you're sorry and we were sweet
But you chose lust when you deceived me
And you'll regret it, but it's too late
How can I ever trust you again?

I feel like our world's been infected
And somehow you left me neglected
We've found our lives been changed
Babe, you lost me