Stormy days to come

Pheww... these few feeks have really taken a huge toll on me. I am drained! To death.

An unofficial news came in just today. Found out the Dean had a meeting with my soon-to-be Director. Also attended the meeting was the Deputy Dean.

They had a discussion on who should the department send for PhD next. Boy, according to the projection meeting last September, my turn would be (the soonest: early 2019). Now, the person who deserves to go next (2018) had a feud with...almost everyone. Why K, Why?!

They were questioning whether or not that guy has such commitment to pursue this course. Judging by his late 'unwelcoming' acts, they were not so convinced. The Dean said; if N is ready, we should send him first! Digging up the past, the Dean said; K did not even complete his MA on time last time!

Oh boy. This is bad. This is really bad!
1. I literally have no proposal prepared! Heck I don't even know what to pursue in... ASSessment? My ass!

2. If you skipped his turn (crossing my fingers they would never do that to him), it will DEFINITELY cause a huge fight, if not an unspoken feud between him and myself! It's not fair and I think he really wanted to go first. Turn-wise, it is his turn anyway. I CAN wait!

3. I need to settle things with my own family. With a baby on board, PhD sounds glitchy at the moment. Plus, I need to wait for my wife to at least finish her labwork! My poor baby... being left too soon..when you're just two months old :(

I hope they will not create a platform for dramatic competition between us two. Sok sek sok sek, to make it fair (their words), let's judge them based on their proposals. @#$%^& URGH! I don't have any..YET!

Alas, I'm hoping for a better sunny day soon. I really hope he would get the turn he deserves. And mine right after that. Woohoo...