Gersang....

Ok, I am starting to count my days here in Jengka....starting from....now. Day 1.

Oh...it is freaking dry here in Jengka. The heat.... The nothingness along the way to workplace..... The loneliness...

Oh boy...it is awfully hard to find a nice and decent house here in Jengka. Fighting over a house with God-knows-how-many-NR-students-out-there....urgh...what a test to my un-local knowledge of current trend among Jengka peeps.

Jengka is a place where you can find Malays which make up 99.2% of its population. To me, it is a weird place as how undeveloped the place is. So far, I have seen two supermarkets around...no TESCO, MYDIN, GIANT or whatsoever...Huhu..there's no 7E as well...how cool is that huh?!

Felda, Felda, Felda. So many numbers and names of Felda around. Basically, it is like so many sections and partitions...At least, that's what I can relate after four years living in Shah Alam... Felda Jengka 20=Section 20 Shah Alam. LOL. 

Dry, dry and dry...sightseeing? I wish. Palm trees fill most of the picture frame though. But I guess, I am okay with this. I have chosen this path, so I will bear with it. I will survive!

How can I not be okay? I have friends...Many friends as a matter of fact. I certainly hope I can easily make friends with everyone there at UiTM. Afterall, it helps me to kill my time...by making a lot of friends and hang out. Come to think of it, where would we hang out here in Jengka???! LOL...

Gersang...The soil is dry with dust everywhere. I might as well start counting the palm trees here to keep me sane....huhu...

I love this place! Weird...but I think i am beginning to fall in love and play along with the music. How comforting. A friend of mine says; "Find happiness in whatever you do and everything will be just fine! Love your work and try to be happy!" (Ekhwan, 2010). Thanks buddy...I will try my best to love what I do here...huhu...

Till then, I ought to go now....but I promise to start looking for happiness here. Toodles.

Feels like a gloomy monday....

(Sigh)....what a luck....

Last night, I had a fight with someone who is very dear to me....I did not sleep well last night. As a matter of fact, I spent a night somewhere else....somewhere where I could forget what had happened. But I would be lying to myself, wouldn't I?

The truth is, I can never forget what happened between us. The fight....urgh, it was just....STUPID....drop it off already....

I wish I can say I am over that issue..but I am not. Still. Just because of a small matter, you left me crashing and burning myself the whole night....what the hell am I crap-ping about? I seriously have no idea. The notion of fighting with someone in the same blood-line (just perhaps)...is a total ridicule....

Can we hug now and get it over with please?! Because, I really need to focus on something else... I hope, you will be able to smile when you talk to me...next time...I really hope so....

I am sorry if ever I did offend you...in any way...which I did not have any intention to do so...huhu...

Sorry for everything...and goodnight dear....

Selamat Menunaikan Umrah

Dear Abah,

Selamat menunaikan ibadah umrah and semoga segala perjalanan ibadah dpat dilakukan dengan sempurna, InsyaAllah...

p/s - will be waiting for u here...;p

fever, fever...go away...~~~

urgh...i think i am about to be sick, again....

urgh...perfect timing...tomorrow's d big day...y now??!

urgh...dizzy...sleepy...tired...

d weather is going crazy lately...it freaks me out...awful...

i am scared.

ok, enough with d rambling.

weird feeling

it's weird....

Have u ever been in a situation where u think that everything is fine but it turns out differently. When the coin flipped, u thought that u were on the right side when actually, it's the other side u should be at...weird.

Hmmm.... I don't know what seems to be wrong but I have this feeling of being rejected. I mean...did I do something wrong? I woke up this morning at about 6.00am... I took my friend to the train station and he was off to work. I went back home. I washed my face (because it was too oily) and the next thing I remember, I was in my bed...fleeing from the miserable world.

I then woke up at about 9.30am. I had my breakfast (Nasi Lemak+Soya Bean) with a friend at the living room. I then hit the shower. I sms-ed a friend; asking if he had printed the notes (for CALL's exam). Yes, he did. In fact, I have been buzzing him with the photocopying thing since...last week perhaps. So, he asked a friend of mine and I to get the notes and photocopy. That's what we did.

Before leaving the house, I passed RM60 to my roommate (it's for the house). He asked me where was I about to go...and I told him that I was off to study. Before photocopying the notes, I have informed him about that and asked if he wants a copy. He said it's ok, coz he ought to get some notes from a friend. That was about it.

After rambling around and hitting behind the bush. The outcome was kind of zero. So much for studying. That was not what I call "study". Too many distractions at McD. I did not even finish answering questions from a single paper. Ridiculous.

My friend and I went home. Starting from that moment, I got this cold shoulder. Not mine or was it mine? I can't even recall. It was awkward. Questions were replied with single words. Weird.

I did not get it then. I was online for a while. Browsed through some pages and hyperlinks+hyper-medias. Baam. That was it. Read a status from facebook. Wow. That was weird. I did not get it. When did I leave someone behind??? Yeah. I did not even dare to wake someone up if that person slept at 6 in the morning. I would not even dare to make noises wondering if he might wake up. I understand of the bad sleeping habit. SO, I guess, he needed to rest.

Tell me something, was I wrong to leave you with your lala-land and leave the house? By right, I should be credited for sparing the peaceful moment for u... I really don't get it which part of my act that made u feel left out????! Have I ever left you??? Wow...if that's the case, I really am a bad figure. Are you expecting something from me? What did I do??? Where did I go wrong???

And...what's with the cold shoulder? What did I do to deserve such treatment? It hurts. It hurts. But that's ok. I completely understand.

I always fly solo I guess..cool...;p

Ok, now I feel really weird...