Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Week 2, Day 2...Ignoring method or Silent treatment???

23 June 2009. 2D was a mess... I spent nearly 15 minutes just to get them setting up straight the class..."Tolong bersih kelas skarang!"... Gedebum gedebam...abis 15 minit...tinggal lagi 15 minutes...

7 students went missing...(sigh)...why???? why???? Don't they like me? "Ok, ko xnak belajar??? Fine, aku pn xnak ngaja...buat la ape korang suke...". n the class went haywire....they were loud...speaking in Tamil and Chinese....I just stared at them with Anwar at the back... I walked around, asking them what they were doing... (double sigh).

Krrringgg....That's the end of my class with 2D..Practically NOTHING! I am still studying on how to get them interested with English.... FYI, budak2 2D ni treats English like rubbish! They don't even have the gut to try..."I don't mind if you speak broken English!", "I don't care as long as you try!!!" I am a dead meat...

I had 3 relief classes today! Two English classes and an IT class... I took the IT students to the computer lab and I taught them Module 3.2 Microsoft Word - Saving Document..(Form 1F)... Susah sangat.... Most of them did not even know how to click "Start" button on the desktop... Susah jugak tu.. and I swear to God, Sharip Dol tu sangat bising!!!! Kuat betul suare die....

2G and 2E were hard as well..but they learned...at least..... and I started my silent treatment with 2D today...and I think it started to show some response.... Hmmm...ko da layan aku mcm tu, now ur expecting me to treat you d way I treat other classes??? When u started to mess around with me... I don't care...be it u'r anak raje ke, anak sultan whatever ke, kacang ke, panjang ke...whatever la....I DON'T CARE! Lantak ko la....

Attitude is something I can handle... Rudeness+Mannerless+Making Fun of Me+Distracting my PnP+Stupid act???? Those are what I can't handle! Do you know how tiring it is for me to shout everytime I walk in your class????? Fine, you want me to play your game? Bring it on...count me in....

"Cikgu, cikgu ni pendek macam budak umo 7 tahun la..." Yeah...no kidding.... I managed to smile and synically lauged for a minute or two...then, I became a hopeless+helpless person.. I didn't know what to do.... I am mentally and physically tired...seriously I am!

I'd rather fail myself now than being crossed out by my supervisor.... 2D???? I never wished for them to be my students... I guess, this is my payment...for my previous sins to my teachers.... Adoi....

I hope I can survive.... I keep telling myself; "They are just children....they are just children.." Until when???? Budak2 zaman skarang da x same mcm dulu...jauh sangat beza dorang.... I am a dead meat....

I heard tonnes of stories regarding my 2D class.... A lot of teachers cried because of them.... Why???? I believe I don't have to mention it again....

I am just waiting for my days to fail...ade rezeki, ade la...kalu xde, nak buat mcm mane...it's not my time kot... Aku sedey sangat...jeles dgn my housemates yang dapat budak2 bagus..especially Tajul, Naz, Piee and Duang.... I feel like screaming and cry.....

Tomorrow is another they... They are just children. I shall not be so mean and cruel to them..Am I????? IDTS.......IMHO, I am somewhere in between friendly<->unfriendly..... I hope I wont cry....

That's all for now....... I am tired...

p/s - Woiii.. H1N1 da masuk Shah Alam....wtf????? Da dekat sangat ni....ayyo.......I am scared...

10 comments:

Mr. BLB said...

student life.ahak
be patient ya!

~fiNdinG a VoiCe~ said...

thanx shari...(cross my fingers not to fail)

Anonymous said...

dear,

we're in the same boat. now who said that teaching the form 1 and 2 is a lot easier?

But I had fun 'teaching' the relief class of 2 Imtiyaz yday, yeah, they're special.

Even when I asked simple general knowledge quiz and did a tongue twsiter everyone participated. The girls even sat on the floor right in front.

So my spirit was (and is) somehow lifted and boosted.

Rina relieved my 2E class for the first time yday and she was already annoyed, frustrated and downright irritated. Haha. Imagine we have to deal with them for the rest of the prac.

So, try to experiment darl. I knew I haven't come close to become successful in CM, but the last time I 'offered' those who WANT to study to sit in front and pretend that those backbenchers don't exist.

Cruel, and about to write them off, but I'll try other method.

Wahlauwei panjangnye I merepek!

Regards,

Wawatul Adawiyah.

ewan mohad said...

you did nothing in the past. you're a great student.

I'm the one who's being rude all the time.

you're the silent one.

no sin at all.

that's why teachers loves you.

go for it.

silent treatment would be nice.

~fiNdinG a VoiCe~ said...

wawa....i dunno la...budak2 zaman skang x same mcm dulu..haiz...

~fiNdinG a VoiCe~ said...

huh...hello ekhwan, bukanke yang selalu ponteng add math tu aku...n arabic as well...kan aku slalu gune alasan g bilik abm..hoho

ewan mohad said...

owh.. i ponteng kelas QS.. heheh..

you score those subject, so you hilang xpe..

Kalo I hilang, sah2 kene quiry in the next class.. hahah..

~fiNdinG a VoiCe~ said...

hnssst...banyak la ko pnye score kan...hsy..pecite skang?

ewan mohad said...

nothing much.. my id friend just got a job, three doors down from mine..
i ajak die tinggal skali kat umah yang cam haram panas tu..

gile keji..

~fiNdinG a VoiCe~ said...

ajak duk skali? meaning...sebilik dgn ko?

errrrr.....ngerinye....